yeah...

If I hadn't made me I'd have been made somehow
If I hadn't assemble myself I'd have Fallen apart by now
If I hadn't made me I'd be more inclined to bow
Powers that be would have swallowed me up and that's more than I can allow
But If you let them make they'll make you paper-mache
At distance your strong until the wind comes then you crumble and blow away
If you let them Fuck you there will be no foreplay
Rest assured they'll screw you complete until your ass is blue and gray
You should make amends with you if only for better health
But if you really want to live why not try and make yourself
If I hadn't made me I'd have fallen apart MBy now
I won't let them make me thats more than I can allow
So when I make me I won't be paper-mache
And if I fuck me I'll fuck me in my own way
you should make amends with you if only for better health
but if you really want to live why not try and make yourself

I love the wisdom that comes from Brandon Boyd. I've mindlessly listened to his songs through the better part of my youth, but when stopping to meditate on his words it seems to be nothing but true wisdom and beauty. The CD make yourself is truly amazing for anyone living in this society and has trouble seeing anything but the wrong. Although I am grateful for winning the birth lottery well as I did, it's hard to believe that all these preconceived notions can lead me to what i looking for, because what I want is something greater, simply a feeling and state of mind that will be created by the nature and beauty of life nad the world we live in. I don't seek to simply abandon society with an acceptance of death at any moment. I am no longer to afraid to use what's in front of me and work the system to get where i want to be. Step 1 continue crushing ACC and transfer. But where to transfer? St. Edwards? Maybe if all else fails. Why not move to a place far away and sought after to seek my degree at a perfectly reputable college in another country? Pontificia Catolica Vaparaiso... here i come,